I can't even believe this is happening to me. I don't know how to do mulitple quotes without going back and forth. So I'm just going to write.

Yes, in August she abandoned me. I was in real termoil due to finances and relationships and my electric got turned off, not becasue of money, it's a long story and it involves the city. ALSO, a lot of it was becasue she never addressed my concerns that she had too many patients (as she calls them) and she just wasn't coming anywhere close to being what I needed her to be. That sounds bad, but it's not. I didn't want a lot. Just some kind of action that showed she was into actually helping me.

I am a unique client. She told me after I asked if she had ever had anyone close to me and she said after a lot of thought, No she hadn't. But she has never once said she saw something that might help me.

I think what happened is she is able to fool everyone else. She talks a good talk and has tons of great info she can rattle off. She has a very soothing voice and seems nurturing and caring. She isn't engaged really at all. She keeps too many patients to be. It took me a while to see her as human because that means that she can fail.

She just couldn't fool me. She tried. I know she won't admit it. I've emailed her a lot in the past three days and that was all she came up with. Go to the hospital. WTF? I wasn't attacking at all. They were very honest and very raw. I do not think she can possibly handle the pain she's caused me. She knew on some level that she was doing untold damage by not getting back sooner and explaining. I could have handled that. I can't handle this. PLUS, the only reason she even contacted me at all was because I said in the subject line that I was begging her to talk to me. I hate begging, I hate drama.

I dont think she is an unfeeling psychopath. I think she is a very sensitive soul and is dealing with me the only way she can. I think if she truly had to face my pain, it would destroy her. She knows what this means to me. She sat with me though all this knowing what she gave me her word on. She's knows what she did, that every word she told me turned out to be untrue. I've told her in the past few days how I was so worried that she wasn't dealing with her issues. In different words though.

I don't know. I care about her and I want her to be whole. I see all the good there, but for some reason she is choosing to ignore everything.

I already called in to work. I didn't want to cry, but as soon as she asked what was wrong, I lost it. I told her I had to quit and she said think about it till Friday. She was very nice and I know these people are SUPER stressed, much nicer then my own T.

I'm going to call my office for her. I bet she's no longer there, other wise I have NO idea how she thinks she wouldn't get in trouble. I am so worried that no matter where I turn with this, people will tell me I'm over reacting. I wish I could stop all this. This is horrible and it sucks bad.

Sorry for going on and on. I just dont know what else to do.