EFFING BS, HAPPYCHEEKS. I for one HATE loud people. Loud and talkative is not a characteristic of a good friend. What will loudness do to you? Not to be rude, but loud people just cause others migrains mostly. Or hide emptiness in their loudness.

And seriously, wanting to kill yourself because you are not loud is pretty stupid. Imagine if the everybody was talkative and loud. Who would listen? Have you ever seen loud girls in catfight on a reality show? Do you think this would be a great thing on global level?

And... we can do only so much for you. You are told over and over again you are nice and how you don't need to be all the things you are not... why aren't you taking it in? What is the real problem? Me thinks there is a issue much deeper than not being loud and "normal". Please, be honest at least with yourself... and try to reach help somewhere. We can do only so much.... especially when we may not be getting the full picture.