ER visit went well, I didn't mess up the tendon but I got stitches. Ever since I was 12 or so I've been SIing the the same always needing stitches and too afraid to go get them. This was my first time going to the doctor about SI. So I was really nervous but the doctor was nice. Since I usually do it in that spot and have never seen it before I am guessing I strayed a bit to far to the right, not to mention I dissociated even more than is normal for me. I already have a horrible scar on that spot anyway from all the times I've SIed there it concaves in quite a lot and is very noticable. Thanks for all the support guys it means a lot to me.