Hi AL1EN. I'm a recovered alcoholic and member of a 12 step progran. The program is spiritual rather than religous. We encourage that one believe in God as he understands Him. One of my favorite sayings is: God either is or isn't. I have a deep and abiding faith in God as I understand Him, which brings me much peace. I have only just started going tochurch a month ago. I'm a long way from the agnostic I used to be. Hang in there and you will find the answer that is right for you. You will be in my prayers.