You guys are so sweet - thank you so much for thinking of ideas for us. We tried the house husband / cleaning responsibility thing the first time around - didn't work. It was humiliating for him to admit to anyone that he wasn't working, not matter what kind of justification we came up with. And from my perspective, I don't want to be responsible for him. If anything ever happened to me, despite my life insurance, he'd still need a way to support himself, and easier for him to figure it out in his early 30's than when he's 50. Morbid, I know but I always worry about what would happen if I died.

I am at the airport right now (using free wifi on my cell phone!) heading to the east coast for a business trip, so he'll have the week to himself. He still seems in good spirits but I have skated around the taboo subject of 'job'. It really gets my goat to not be able to ask a reasonable question like that, but I am under T's orders, so so be it. Thw Wellbutrin is kicking in, maybe, or else I'm too busy and tired to get too worked up today. I picked up a used book called 'Wherever you go, there you are - mindful meditation in everyday life', inspired by my dear PC friend Kvinneakt. I'll have a bit of time to myself to do some reading and see if I can learn some quick ways of recentering when it feels like the world is spinning out of control.

Thank you, friends