wow.. rubyred... this is very helpful. Thank you
I have actually in the past week made a huge stride of progress in this area through a romantic relationship. I know that sounds odd... but it's the first step out. I haven't ever truly connected with the opposite sex before this point. It's been a wonderful awakening. I think I'm gonna be alright if I have someone in my life... it only takes one.... who accepts me like I am and even moreso loves me through and through. Your are dead on about the childhood/parental stuff.

Life is not a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in one pretty and well preserved piece...but to skid in broadside, thoroughly used up, worn out and defiantly shouting "Wow! What a ride!"