((((Hunny)))))

Eskielover has the right advice in how to look at what you just experienced. And I know how hard this lesson is. We want to believe that maybe we should give our family members another chance and see if we can work it out somehow, maybe we need to understand more etc., etc., etc. But the reality is that a toxic person is a toxic person and the only one we can change is ourselves and that is hard to see within a family.
We just all are so programed that we should do our best to find ways to accept our family members and see how we can hang onto our families. The sad reality is often we simply cannot do that, and our efforts to try can end up in our exposing ourselves to once again become a victim.

That dream that you had expresses that deep sense of loss and feeling of being so badly hurt and feeling so threatened. Your going to have to find a way to make peace with that and understand that it something that you experienced in your past that truely made you feel threatened and frightened. But it is just a dream and you have to learn new ways to build your own sense of strength and part of that new sense is finding a way to see the past as the past and your just going to learn how to survive better and allow yourself to be a stronger person, and that you truely have the right.

And I know that it is hard to learn how to do what I am expressing here. I am working on it myself and I do admitt that I too am struggling and learning. At least I understand that I am not going to just get over my past overnight. My own goal is to make efforts to heal a little each day and do my best to allow myself to learn ways to overcome and continue on.

Open Eyes