yeah it has been a big issue for me for half my life since I was a kid. I live with my gran and she has always been emotionally distant so I came to it feeling it was the only way to let out my emotions. She likes to pretend it doesn't exist at all though. Ignorance is bliss to her. I used to do it everyday for hours at a time and here in the last two years I've really made a concerted effort to stop. But I always seem to come back to it every few months. It seems the longer I go without it it gets harder instead of easier. It used to control my life, and although it isn't that bad anymore I still struggle with it every day.