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Originally Posted by VenusHalley
One of my therapists would tell me to enjoy my pity parties and let him know when I was ready to move on.
there is a difference between pity party and other kinds of blue. My most depressions are not about poor me anyways... surely I want to matter and make a mark, but not for myself... and I can mostly channel this energy. Maybe I am doing some mirroring when I write about how humanity is almost over and "my poor troubled nation"... who knows.
Maybe I am not ready to move on yet. Because... yes, I enjoy the deconstructing, the rawness and the enlightening nature of darkness to a degree. It is a part of me I am not ready to ditch... yet, if ever.
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And THIS is why I think that whoever's therapist said this, the comment was a little insensitive..."Pity Party"? Really? I don't know...Maybe it's me looking too deep into that comment, but the words that people choose to use can be very telling about how they feel or think....
But anyway...I agree with the poster....I do tend to find myself thinking alot...Over thinking maybe sometimes? I can get deep into analayzing...Sometimes this is a bad thing though...It's good when I gave an "ephiphany" but when I think so much to the point where I'm beginning to over think and worry....Yea, not good  And I totally get what you are saying...I've notices this about myself as well...What can I say?
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