I've been an on and off smoker since 15. I have quit three times once cold turkey twice with the patch, for 3 years I was a non smoker. The past 5 I picked up again. I'm a die hard smoker, im aware of how gross it is, stinky and not to mention the health effects, I'd like to quit but I LIKE to smoke. I know it's strange but it's something I enjoy, my desire to smoke is far more then that to quit but it's 1. Too expensive & 2. Taking a toll on my health. My doctor keeps pushing chantex on me but the psychological side effects scare me beyond belief because I'm already a sleep walker so that drug is out of the question. How do I motivate myself to kick the butts and how did you quit?