Anyway.

I am trying very hard to protect myself from these people.
Face to face contact must be kept to an extreme minimum.

I feel like an animal.
I am the prey for which they seek vengeance
I told my therapist this, but she does not understand
i got very angry
i said:
"i dont pay you to patronize me, or give me advice, i pay you to listen to me"
she said:
"well you may not like what i have to say but you sound paranoid. the stuff you are saying, a lot of paranoid schizophrenics already have went through this. why do you suppose you have your diagnosis?"

i just keep thinking about that.
thinking: well, part of the predators out there are specific psychiatrists targeting me.

im not ruling out yet that she is a possible predator.

face to face contact is to be kept to a minimum.

any further reports on me are of my not following instruction.
my not obeying.

she probably has the most easiest job in this whole manhunt
spies.liars.organized crime.
she can look at my face
she can write down things and hide them from me
if she so wishes

what else can i say?