First things first. Sit down. Relax. Take in a deep breath and let it out slowly. I really think Ms Bunny you may be trying to "wear" a "label" someone unthinkingly and cruelly slapped on your back and your OCD is
making things worse for you. Your constant worrying over this matter could "trap" you into many directions very innocently. I think you are a very wonderful, talented ordinary girl trying to find her place in the world. Don't let the world take your innocence from you. It would be an honor for me to meet you someday even if it is behind a McDonald's resturant. Good luck to you.