Oh, JD, you cannot allow yourself to fall into self loathing, that is not being fair to yourself. You do have to understand that you struggle and give yourself permission to continue to work through your struggles. You must continue to use your faith to remind yourself to love yourself as your faith has taught you to do. Often we must remember it is through our own suffering that we can reach out to others even more as we can understand the depths of real deep needs. I know that is often very hard to see and understand, but you MUST not turn to self loathing. Will it be there? Oh yes I can feel it to but then I remember that I am truely stuggling and must allow myself to forgive all that I cannot seem to do.
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