thank you all- LikeWater and Kaliope- you two hit things close to me.

It is something to think about but its hard... I have also tried to look at it through life as- it happened, I don't have to put up with as I got older, and most certainly I could not be like that. try to talk more with my boyfriend about things and so forth..

I get confused though- IE like with my Dad, I get confused with how to feel about him.

My family stuff I have talked to my boyfriend about- I have exposed it to someone, someone listened, understood my hurt.. why does it have to come back up though? Why do at times I have a hard shell, a hard time, unable to be close to others, poke people with a stick to ones being nice and want to know me, etc so much more.. all i can say is idk, some thing to work on, something to think on...

My therapist, IDK if she wants to talk about this stuff with me- i keep getting told i need to be stable, but yet I only have till March 2012 with her. :?