Hey, yes. I can absolutely relate because the same thing is happening to me now. Ive been dealing with anxiety, depression, OCD, and whatever else is going on since I was 16. Now 22. I met my girlfriend 3 years ago and she left me yesterday. I saw it coming for about a month and tried to change her mind. I've been pushing her away for probably about a year and didn't even notice it. I feel so terrible I can't think straight. The only advice I can give you IS to seek help. I to found out when it was to late. So you aren't alone. If you wanna talk more about id glady talk to you more about it. Feels pretty good knowing I'm not the only one that pushed what I felt like the only thing that was keeping me "grounded" in life.