Paranoia, anxiety, isolation, the inability to get any support or even relate to others around me...what does this add up to? This is what is going on with me. I try to talk to people and they don't even get what I mean by anything I say at all.

Like I told my bf last night, if you "get it" then tell me how. Only then by what someone says can I begin to tell if they "get it" at all. Usually I talk, people say they understand, but when they tell me how they understand and all that I realize they are so far from understanding what I'm talking about and that in essence they really don't understand at all.

It's like I have to go to the most advanced cutter, most severe case of abuse, etc. to find someone who even remotely understands what I am talking about!

I'm so sick of all this. No one will try to help me, relate to me...nothing! I don't even know why I try to find someone who I can relate to. I sit here crying because I feel so utterly alone.

It's like this. Imagine everyone else in the world getting the answer of 3 when they add 2 + 2, but when you do it you get the correct answer, 4. I can't make people understand at all...so what now?

I'm so close to giving up at this point!