Thank you for the ideals. I am just so bummed again. I slept better last night for having talked about it all but then I was snoring or moaning and my dh tried to get me to stop and I jolted awake with a shriek. He was upset and wnated to know why I was having bad dreams and what I was worrying about that made me react like that. I didn't know what to say.

My therapist has talked about grounding myself when I have these kind of things happen, that helps but after the fact. She talked about doing it before I try to sleep but my dh is wanting my attention then. So I end up too tired to think about where and how I am. Sometimes it seems as if being single would be a lot easier but the relationship between us is the only one that has endured without me shutting down or shutting the other person out. Mostly cos he won't let me shut him out.

I guess I will keep feeling things -- there are some feelings that are not so bad. Just after years of stuffing all the bad ones, I am overwhelmed with them now. staying up doesn't seem to help. I either stay up all night and most of the next day or I doze off now and again only to jolt awake with that dream or one of slipping and falling. Each set of nightmares seem to relate to an area of my life I am working on or my mind is getting me ready to work on.(UGH)

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