Fuzzy, you are one of the brightest bears (or people for that matter) that I know. I understand how you feel though, because I feel so stupid for things in my past too. I'm sorry that you are having a hard time and don't feel comfortable saying what you mean and what you feel. For now, let us know when you need support any way you can, and when you want to talk some more we'll be ready.

Luv Ya,
Rap