Irishgirl, I can relate to much of what you say. Not wanting to be here, my kids, the extreme pain, the bipolar, the anorexia eating at your soul. But things can get better, things can change.

If you are still feeling this badly then maybe the lamictal isn't working for you that well. I've struggled for years finding the right meds an trying to avoid the weight gain. Right now I am on two mood stabilizers instead of taking an antipsychotic like seroquel which are notorious for weight gain. Maybe something like that would be an option for you. Right now I am taking lithium and tegretol and it's working good for me.

Unfortunately the right meds are the key. If you are anything like me the bipolar episodes drive the anorexia further. If you can get the right meds it makes a world of difference in trying to get a handle on the anorexia. In turn it is really hard to feel good mentally when we are starving our brain and body of vital food. Not only that but when you are in starvation mode it effects how your body metabolizes your meds making them less effective. So it's really a bit of a circle with this one.

Just keep hanging in there with your therapy and treatment. Try to consider trying some new meds. It really can make a huge difference when you get the right ones. Remember you are not alone in this. (((( Irishgirl))))