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Originally Posted by newtus
My father works a lot and it's just me and him. My parents divorced. I don't know a single soul anymore that's my age. My father is so busy, some days I can't talk to him.
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Sorry you're getting isolated. This is something my son is consciously working on right now. He just has me. Well, he sees my mom a few times a week, but she's pretty impatient with him. And he sees his therapist weekly and his pdoc monthly. Every once in a while he calls one of my sisters. But mostly it's just me.
We've had a problematic relationship in the past, and when he's getting bad, the first thing he does is cut me off. So now he's working on
not doing that. In fact when he starts feeling like he doesn't want to talk to me, he knows it's an early sign that he's slipping into unreality.
Anyway we're working on repairing our relationship in the hopes it will be healing for both of us. It's almost like we're doing a do-over for his teen years.
He's applying for a job that will be evenings Monday through Friday, so we'll hardly ever be home and awake at the same time. I'm a bit nervous about that, because I'm keeping him grounded right now.
Maybe you need someone to help you stay grounded too?
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I dont know...
Long story short: I've been having these ...hm, i dont know, what are these? Senses? Perceptions?, since I was 9 years old. What if these people are there? My example of being in a locked room could be in a public place of any kind, and, well....people are there. They are there but you do not see them, but they know everything about you. If in one instance it is true, how can it not be in mine? I fear letting my guard down.
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I think the feeling of being exposed and the need to be hypervigilant is common for people with a trauma history. I'm really sorry you don't feel safe.
