Hello,

I am new here. I was diagnosed with mild Schizoid about 3 years ago. I really don't know that much about it other than I have it. I am also bipolar so it is weird. I just want to say hi and see if other people can relate?

I was an only child and never good at making friends. I go through phases where I just want to be alone and then I get so lonely I go crazy. I don't know if that makes sense. I don't like working in groups or asking for help. But at the same time I was always a "performer" as a kid. For example, I feel much better on a stage where 300 people are looking at me than in the crowd surrounded by people.

Also people don't seem to "get me." I always feel like I'm walking around with a big "There's something wrong with me, don't talk to me" stamped on my forehead. Even online I feel like I'm doing something weird and people are repelled... I just feel totally disconnected from people. I get aggitated easily with people and want to hide. I feel accused a lot or unwanted, but I think that's more the bipolar.

I'm really aloof a lot. Sometimes I think I'm really excited about something but my husband calls me "zombie," and accuses me of not showing any excitement? He is always saying things like, "there's that zombie face again." And I think I know what he means because I see it, too. In photos where I don't know if I'm in the pictures or home movies where I didn't know I was being filmed (although sometimes when I am aware, too.) Also recently we got a Kinect and it takes movies while you play. Well, I have a lot of fun, but in every video of me my face is totally blank. I don't get it.... I don't even know if this has anything to do with it...

Anyway, nice to meet you all.