Ok, so, I need to find a therapist. I found a place that I want to check out but I'm really scared to do so. I've only ever talked to 3 people about my problems and 2 of them seem to not take it seriously. Only my fiance does. Also, even though they have a sliding scale, I don't know if I can even get treatment. I'm out of work currently and we live on a measly 600 to maybe 700 a month. We have some government assistance in the food area and I hate that. It makes me feel even worse that I can't work and pay for my own food.

I've had problems since I was small but my family was really christian (nothing wrong with that) but they were the type of christian that thinks mental illness is caused by demons and therapists etc.. open the door for more demons. So, I lived with it and never said anything to anyone. I don't even know if I can talk to a therapist because I can barely get it out to my boyfriend. Half of the time I don't even know how to say it. It's there and I know what it is but it doesn't come out in any intelligible way.

How do I go about this? My fiance is coming with me when I decide to go but that doesn't really help. How did you do this? The way I took care of my feelings before was to write poetry and I love writing poetry but I haven't in so long and I don't even have a desire to write anymore and it makes me want to bawl. I've even been published and I can't do it anymore.

I'm very confused and need a lot of help.
Thanks