Hi sunshine, I know what that's like. Just keep fighting it. Is there anything going on that might be making you feel like that? If you want to talk please feel free to post. Believe me, I know that life isn't easy and sometimes some events can cause us to believe other events are worse than they are. It helps to talk, if not here, then maybe you should get a therapist or something... although i don't know much about therapists as i'm still trying to figure things out too.