Hi Blondemom,
Just to follow up, I did discuss parenting skills today in therapy. I am working on regaining control and being firm. I also am trying to get the guilty feelings under control because I recently spent about a month in a major depressive state and gave my children only the attention necessary to maintain. I am always having to adjust meds to feel somewhat normal. Right now I am feeling "in control" with my current med combination and weekly therapy sessions.

How about you? After rereading your post it sounds like you are working very hard to hold it together right now. I think I know what you're feeling because I visit that emotional state pretty regularly and I still have not learned to visit the docs before I hit bottom. Try really had to gather up the energy to visit your doctor and get help. We owe it to ourselves to try to find happiness-I know it's hard, but there is help out there for you.

Keep us posted-

Bluemountains