it just fell into place like that i suppose, every two weeks. i had started doing it every week but then we started doing every two weeks. i dont know why. no announcement was made. idk where it started going like that.

my time also keeps getting shifted. i hate it. i need to ask about that but...

...yea, isolation...
i realize to some degree that my extreme isolation (has been going on since i graduated High School, in 2008, when i was already shy and introverted to begin with) has made me a strict misanthropist along with a very edgy impatient persona. edgy as in somewhat agressive. though i dont like this persona. it only comes when im angry. (i dont have DID as im very aware of this. i try to calm down my anger but that has never worked) most times im really just anxious, skittish and neurotic. too be honest ive never had anger problems until about a year and a half ago. i suppose when i got off my meds? i have no idea but it gets worse every month.

um as far as people, i dont know if i realize how socially awkward i might be. until only about 2-3 months ago i had a couple of people tell me i walk weird and talk weird, look weird. now ive always been told that but i thought people were just being mean but i videotaped myself going about in my house and i was a bit taken aback only because i guess i could admit, i do walk funny, my posture is weird, and just everything they said.

i have no idea if it has to do with this disorder but ill admit...its pretty...heh weird. i suppose ive been doing this for years.