Ok, so if u have seen any of my other posts you'll see some people say I do have "disordered thinking" when it comes to food but.. Well Ive been going strong for the past month or so. I have been eating regularly and not counting calories (if I EVER do I always try to see how low I can go in one day). And well... Lately I'm really feeling it. When I feel full (I'm not bulimic as in I've never thrown up my food) I feel like I need to just get rid of it or that I'm out of control an have no discipline.. I feel like if I dot count calories then I don't know how much I'm really eating which means I'm overeating. I sometimes wish I could just throw up but I would never go that far. I don't think I have an ED because that's just too extreme for me.. But.. I think I'm struggling with related issues. It's been 6 months since I dfirst decided not to eat for a day and nothing has ever been the same. I want to go back to not eating spoof badly but I know I had a lady keeping me accountable and I just dint want tO disappoint her. Gahhhh! I've maintained my weight the past month which isn't good because I am Overweight . I just want to lose weight and keep it off. I just want to stop feeling so angry at myself for eating. I hate that I am so undisciplined.