Bless your heart! I was in such a dark place a few months ago; I too see a great therapist and amazing pdoc; my meds were great in taking me from that dark place. I'm glad you don't have a plan; I never did either but that truly means nothing; I was made aware of that from both docs; just because you don't have a plan doesnt mean you aren't feeling dark.

Unfortunately I am dealing with weight gain, I take lamictal/cymbalta/atarax/vistaril but to be out of the dark is so much better. I have major food/weight issues which have surfaced lately. You will come out of this; try to stay strong. You are in good, supportive hands here at psych central.

Take Care!