No, i meant, im aware of my anger. I do not think i have DID.

persona:
the aspect of someone's character that is presented to or perceived by others

yeaaa.

anyway...i just...i dont know about contact with people, period. i can ask my therapist about more time.

and i never really saw myself do anything. i rarely watch/see videos of me because i do not have myself or know anyone that has me on camera. perhaps when i was a young child, but thats a bit different. its very unnerving because i always thought i was like anyone on the street as far as normal gestures and going along non-verbally, but i've seen that it's not like that....its not like most people. that was a sucky awakening for me. now i realize what many people have been telling me most of my life.

that was what made think perhaps i have aspergers, at one point a month or two ago. those people made me look at myself but when i was a teenager people thought i was autistic/aspergers, though, i am not? by people i mean teachers hah, and then a few students, but most students just said i act extremely weird. my family used to and occasionally still does, question how i act. i should mention, those two people was a family member and a friend who i am not friends with anymore. though, anyway i was 15 when i was diagnosed with schizoaffective.

hm, and my anger is 99% towards people, 100% towards living things. im impatient and seem to find most everyone idiots. im insanely impulsive. lately ive been trying to take out my impulsive anger by jumping off high places like a roof, or a tall porch or whatever. kind of like parkour accept i hate parkour, and i just jump into some bushes from a shed roof and then go back and sit down at the computer. for example.