I am supposed to look around and say aloud if I can I am here and I am safe. Hard to explain without an example so here goes:

"I am in my bedroom, there is my dresser, I can feel my blankets and that is my dh snoring. I am safe and they cannot hurt me here. This is my home my room and my bed and I am safe here. I am not there where I was being hurt, I am in my room. There is the picture I hung on the wall there is closet with my clothes. This is 2004 not 1969 and I am an adult -- I am stronger and I am safe." About here I usually pray some cos I am calm enough to think again, before this I can only beg to be helped and for the abuse to stop. For whatever reason I tend to rexperience it physically as well as mentally and someday I just hurt all over. During the day, I sometimes use a method i learned from EMDR. I move my eyes back and forth on the diagonal while letting my thoughts wonder through the problem. The few that i have worked through like that have been better, but I have to strike while the iron is hot and I am too scared to open any of my 'boxes' without help. I just deal withthe crississes as they pop up.

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