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Originally Posted by MELISSSAD81
So I saw T last friday and pdoc yesterday. Pdoc was an appointment to discuss the depression that had befallen me again. In the conversation he acknowledged that I had come a long way from where I was when he first met me when I was in the hospital in July. The wierd thing is internally I do not truly resonate with that. However intellectually it is very obvious. They both tell me how hard I have worked and how far I have come. Why is it that they and everyone else for that matter seem to see it but I cant truly believe it? Maybe I struggle with the word progress and switch it unknowingly for perfection?...I dont know. Is my progress toward wellness fake because I am on meds? Is this really me if I have to take meds to acjieve it? I dont kmow where all this is coming from really but its obviously in there somewhere. Just thinking out loud...
Some thoughts please...
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Depression is a
horrible condition, and I wouldn't scorn any treatment that showed any signs of working. On my worst days, medication and therapy
together were barely enough.
Of course, meds won't
cure you, but they'll help hold you together while the therapy takes affect.
Depression and cognitive distortion feed off each other. Feeling "fake" is part of the condition. But if people tell you you've improved, they are probably telling the truth. You won't feel it in your heart (not yet!), but try to accept it at an intellectual level.
One Summer I was feeling well enough to come off Prozac, but I had to go back in Autumn. And so it was for several years. Each year, I was unmedicated for a longer time, and this year I needed it only a couple of days.