That's a good question. It's obvious you love your husband. I highly recommend you two try sex therapy and you can explore those issues. I had a really similar experience with my first husband. I was unable to have sex with him, he went to jail, and unfortunately i was attracted to my boss. While my husband was in jail, i had an affair with my boss. My boss was obviously using me. I felt incrdibly guilty. I left my husband and my womanizing boss. Confessed to my husband but couldnt bring myself to go back to him. Whole experience broke me. Later my former husband touched me and it was electric. Said he learned how to massage. My point is, i believe you can be spared the pain i went through.either you can find passion through therapy with ypur husband or you dont and
Can properly separate from him before experimenting with another partner.