Lonewolfie, i know what it's like to have those feelings while driving to work. I went a about a year where i wanted to crash my car on way to work. What saved me is now a friend needs a ride and i don't get those feelings with someone else in the car. I'm so sorry you are going through all this. It is so hard to wait for help. I dont know how it is in Canada but in states there are different resources .i waited 9 mos for low cost counseling and then found out from a friend there were other options. Just call and ask as many people as ypu can and maybe you can get something sooner. Sending you positive vibes.