Lexi, I think talking to your doc is a good starting point for your meds. What your going through is so frustrating. No one but yourself can really know how YOU feel. Trying too put it into words so others can understand is very difficult. I think in general people may understand "surface stuff" but unless they actually walk in your shoes they may never know exactly how you feel. I wish I had some better advice and I'm sorry you are feeling so frustrated but like the others, if you ever need too talk I'm all ears.
HUGS
Cher