Could you please pray for me, she asks humbly.

Lately I have have been struggling with many things, spirituality being one of them and am feeling a little lost. I've been keeping up my positivity and trying to feed my soul as much as I can, with a smidgen of fake it till you make thrown in for good measure. But in the end it is not keeping my bipolar at bay.

I have been stable for just over 2 months. I had a lengthy severe manic episode lasting five or so months prior to that. It was a very scary place, I felt my mind was gone and not coming back. Now I find myself slipping to depression despite taking all measures. And I am scared. I don't know how much energy I have left. I don't know how much mind I have left. I don't know if I can continue to pick up the peices every time. I just don't know if I have what it takes. I feel very fragile and the thought of these cycles continuing forever is sometimes just too much to bear.

I think I just need more time to recover this time before being thrown back in.