Yeah, im too nice. I used to lack a backbone 100%. Im slowly shedding it. I snap a lot now. I hate getting angry to certain levels but if it grows me a backbone...

i dont know.

but this is something i must do.
i never used to hate people
but i learned to and the i wanted to then it came natural.

to be honest, i dont mind it mostly.
as long as i can still love the one person closest to me, my dad.

i must, i HAVE to do this.

there is no way this world is gonna see the truth.
and in the process of all this...
i will get be watched and i will be caught
i know this.
its just a matter of when & the timing.
everything has to be perfect.

i got caught by surprise a bit but...
i shouldve known
because now i have the S.Service watching me.


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