I dont know If I am even posting the right thing on the right forum here. I have avoided posting on this forum for a long time I think because I thought if the longer I could go without acknowledging my issues that maybe they wouldn't be such a big deal. Long story short i'm bipolar and have been cutting for about 10 years now. It comes and goes depending on what i'm dealing with in my life. There are very few times where I go a significant amount of time without cutting. The past few months has been one of those rare moments in time where I have been SI free. But now i'm not so sure.

About a week ago I burnt the back of my hand on accident grabbing a dish out of the oven. At first it wasn't a big deal and it was healing nicely. Then I found out that I had the desire to peel off the skin that was blistering over the burn. I have not let it heal at all. I think it is getting infected as it is now swollen and hot to the touch. Is this some kind of form of SI coming out in a different way? I get the same feelings that I get when I cut but Im not sure. I dont know. Im really confused right now.

Any thoughts?