I have recently split from my girlfriend as she needed to start councelling for the numerous bad thing's that has happened to her in previous relationship's...when she told me she said "I need to do this alone and my coucellor has suggested we finish" i asked her if she ever had any feeling's for me to which she replied "I can't lie and say i never felt anything for you...you need to find someone who deserve's you and you can't wait for me 'cos i might never be right" i said i'd wait as long as i need to (i really do love her) and she said "that's too much pressure...forget me find yourself a good woman"...I FOUND HER...and since this conversation i have not been sleeping because she's in my dream's i can't eat 'cos i just wanna throw up, the thing's i used to love doing (even before i met her) have no interest to me at all...i'm depressed and quiet (usually i was the wise-cracker) my friend's have noticed ...and everytime they ask i snap at them and tell them to leave me alone, i'm pushing them away at a time when i need them most and i can't stop myself...the last thing i said to her was a promise not to tell anyone about her councelling (we have the same circle of friend's) i tried lying and saying it finished because i "was being an a**hole" none of my friend's believe this but they keep pushing for the truth and i need to talk about it but i CAN'T break my promise...everytime i come close to twlling i burn my arm with the tip of a lighter...it hurt's but is a fraction of the pain she'd feel if i ever told...i feel alone, numb ...like i've give up on life and just gonna sit and let nature take it course...my burning's are getting more and more frequent and other more dangerous thought's are creeping into my mind ...i'm worried and i need help but i can't ask my friend's (what's left of them) ...i'm stuck and i've give up and i don't know how to dust myself off...anyone help?