I'm sorry you are having such a hard time It is not easy to have a relationship you cherished end. It will feel awful for a while but that is only natural. As for your anxieties, if you were born that way maybe your T or someone on PC could give you some coping tips? There is a PC forum for anxiety. If something happened to cause the anxieties (maybe in childhood?) then maybe you and your T could explore that some more? Do hang in there dusty--we are all here for you