I have one aspect where when I have an internal monologue, I get respones from people I know that are usually very disparaging (like getting an image of my TDoc saying I should shoot myself).

The voice is very different and very unique. It calls its self "Dreadnaught" and basically ranted for several pages on how it always has to clean up my messes after depressive episodes and its the one holding everything together. It makes sense that this could be a halucination that my mind has created to deal with all the thoughts and emotions that I can't cope with, I guess I just never expected it to actually name its self, start describing who it liked and didn't like, what it wanted to do, etc.

I have found while writing in the journal that whenever "it" speaks, the writing style does change, but I don't know if thats me doing it sub-consciously or if its an aspect of "it".