I read the passages/excerpts.

I thought about them and i can see them. How they can relate to me.

I feel justified in both my responses:

- I want to help others
- I hate people

This whole thing of people watching started when I was 9. I never understood why people were watching. It started with my parents but its not how I thought it was.
Not my parents together. My mom maybe. Not my dad though. I have tested him enough, he is not against me. In fact, hes with me, if anything.
Not at all against me in this situation, though.

I feel I am different in certain aspects. Very, especially socially. Amongst other things. But, along with this I knew it was my mission in life
(especially by 18) that I needed to bring these people down. I soon, very very soon, found out that it wasnt gonna happen without a fight and
I would have to watch over my shoulder everywhere I went. Not just that but change my gameplan.

The whole situation gets worse as time goes on in my life.

Ive had to shift my whole life for this. I grow more anxious everyday.

Though, ive had to change everything from being peaceful yet anxious to anxious
yet scared, to changing how I dress and how I get info.

I honestly hate society so much, but I know theres a few out there that deserve to be helped.
That is not majority.

With that, I realized i'm not just doing this mission to uncover the evils and the demonic
persons of this world but I'm doing it for those few that arent majority.

So in a way I am saving this world.

I realize these people in high power know about me (I cannot 100% escape their eyes, whatever their
eyes may be; human eyes, mechanical, digital, gas/water/air powered), but theres what they call
copycats or followers. Citizens that get on the situation for their own personal gain; they are coerced
with bribery, blackmail, trading, what have you. They dont know about me. They are not trained like
people who are in high positions of power are. Those are who I have to hide from, mainly: copycats/followers.

Please know this.

I read those passages, i like them. Thank you.

Im an avid reader on philosophy. An avid reader, now, after embarking on the subjects/issues 11 months ago.
So i understand what they were conveying. Im hooked and believe I will always be.

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