(((((Anika)))))

I am so sorry to hear your struggling. Your such an active positive member here at PC.
I don't really know about what it is to have a manic state and what that means. But I do know how I feel with my PTSD where I seem to find some clarity and then I tumble and struggle and it truely is upsetting and like you I wonder if I am going to recover and stay strong. I just keep praying myself and I also read everything I can about what I have to try to understand it.

I hope your seeing a therapist that you can talk to about this.

I will definitely pray for you sweetheart, I know your trying, I think we all are and it can be scary, have faith in yourself, continue to take it one day at a time. Fake it till you make it? well I don't think it is all faking, I think it is our will and making a conscious effort to heal, I never underestimate the healing capacities of the brain.

Open Eyes