I want to cut. I am feeling depressed and lonely and unlovable. I went to my friend's for Thanksgiving tomorrow, but now I feel so alone. I hate the holidays as it reminds me of how alone I am. That I will probably be alone my whole life. Everyone else has family, and my family just hurts me when I am around them. I tell everyone that I don't see my family for holidays because of the cost (which is part of it), but really it is because I don't want to see them. So I guess it is my fault that I am lonely. And mine alone.

No one will ever love me, my mom was right. I don't know why I even try. People want to be around me when I can help them, but once that is done I'm all alone. No one cares.