I could have used you all last night. I saw a guy beating on his kid--or who I assume was his kid. It was a teenage boy about 16 or 17 years old in the backseat of their car. There was a woman in the front passenger seat staring blankly straight ahead, obviously trying to block what was happening. The guy saw me watching as he got back into his car. We certainly don't know each other. But I did get the guys license plate number. I could have used some help on what to do with it. It's so different. Last night I knew the right thing to do, and I wanted to do it, but I didn't know how. It didn't feel right. For so long in my own life, I learned to shut up and put up with that kind of stuff.

I did call DCFS hotline number to inquire about what I saw, and instead of taking a confidential/anonymous report for them to investigate, the person decided it was more urgent and that I needed to get the police. Yikes! NOT what I wanted! I so so so so so SO did not know what to do! I was/am so afraid of being emotional and my emotions with this stuff--I have PTSD history because of abuses to me--that I have wanted to keep conversation about what I saw not so direct and in person and everything.

I eventually went online on my phone and started Googling the police department. I had a lot of trouble navigating and even accessing the websites on my phone because of the type of code they use not very compatable with either of my browsers. I found the address to the police department and drove there-AROUND the block by the building. I drove down a mile maybe and sat in a shopping center parking lot for several hours Googling the police department some more. I had a lot of trouble with their website, but finally came across a couple of email addresses for various Chiefs-of-something there and emailed one of them. It was after 2am by this point.

I got an email back while I was in the shower this morning. Of course
they wanted to talk to me. I received a seperate email telling me a file number. I called and talked to him a while later. He said that a few detectives will be calling me--it sounds like several times and keeping in regular contact til the end of the investigation and final outcome. Hopefully this all won't be too complicated. I am still very afraid of emotions with this. I left my T a voice mail last night and more this morning. I even left my daughter's T a voice mail. I emailed several people (most multiple times). Right now I am going on about two hours sleep. With my new work schedule (and I still don't exactly like the dang job), I'm not getting to see my T as much. His voice mail is suffering because of this. Especially the past 24-hours. In fact, as I look at the time, it happened 24-hours and 10-munutes ago.