(((((Googley))))) i hate what abuse has done to your life too. It's unfair. I wish you didnt feel so alone. I wish you lived in colorado springs bc you could just come on over to my house and hang out with me, my dog and two cats. My house is even clean for once.i dont know what abbreviation IRL or FML mean. I love you, sweetie i really do. I read all the beautiful things you write on here. Whatever you are feeling is ok and valid, but know you are loved. And it isn't difficult to love you at all.