I have extreme anxiety. I always need to control and make everything right. I over study, over work, and over stress. This has helped me and hurt me professionally. I am recognized for my ambitious work ethic and I'm the one who everyone goes to if they have a question. It also did get me promoted. But it may be short lived, as I'm scared I will have a breakdown there. Any sort of criticism or real stress I have a panic attack. Any time I can't control things I have one as well. I had a sales job in the past where if you didn't sell enough you were fired. The thought of not knowing my life was stable had me crying multiple times a day. Breaking into tears at work in front of everyone. Having panic attacks that lasted the entire day and made it difficult to sleep even hours later. A feeling of mania sort of comes over me. I can't even stand the idea that a vacation isn't planned to the T. The thought of one thing bad on my credit report has me obsessively checking my bills to make sure they are on time. It has taken control of my life and I have been self medicating with alcohol. I tried the medicine 10 years ago and it made me have no anxiety. Which made me quit my job with no back up plan. I need help and I don't want to become an alcoholic like my mother. Can anyone relate to these symptoms or fears?