I am the same. I drink 2 glasses of vodka and diet orange (weird I know) every night while watching tv. It is the only thing that helps me. I haven't seen anyone since I was prescribed alprazolam and fluoxitine. Fluoxitine made me miserable. I don't have depression. It actually made me depressed and suicidal. Alprazolam was amazing and It took me 6 months to finish one bottle so I was not abusing it. When I went to see them they told me no more alprazalam as it's addictive. Why in the world prescribe it then? Anyways sorry I went on a rant. I recently realized I'm going down a bad path. My mom is an extreme alcoholic and I had a lot of trauma growing up because of it. I now can't go to bed without a drink and I barely sleep. I go to work for 8 hours, put my daughter to bed, do homework from 10-12 and drink from 12- until 2 or 3. then do it again. It is a bad path and as the earlier poster said a slippery slope. I am very close to getting help for it.