AWW thanks Mandy.. I understand what you mean..once I thought I was doing really well..fast enough deep enough.... Like a dunce I asked my T one day if he thought I wasnt making any progress....he said...Welllll I can't say you arent making *any* implying hardly any....He saw the hurt on my face...So I left hurt he tried to fix it with some words..I dunno what they were now...he even mentioned that session months later ...cause he saw the pain...But ya know I WAS going as FAST and as well as *I* could..I can honestly say that much later and MY best like YOUR best and fastest IS good enough...So.....make sure you do what he sez and all and try ....but your mind will tell you when the speed is NOT safe ..Thats jmo..I am lol obviously no shrink

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