Thanks Rose, I have put this question on a back burner and your advice is a much better way to think about this question and how to approach it.

I am just very misunderstood by all of my family and I can't blame them, who can possibly understand something that I, myself am struggling to understand.

Thank you all for your responses, as you know PTSD can cloud with emotion and exposing the past with too much emotion and so little understanding of how I struggle can end up causing me more anguish, misunderstanding, distance and pain.

Open Eyes