Right now I am cutting because it is the only control I have right now with everything going on.

I never cut for attention and opposite to the poster that talked about caring for the wound I am the total opposite. I cut and just leave it and do nothing.

Some of the other posters mentioned some of the things I can certainly relate too as that is how I felt.

Sometimes it was because:
I do it to stop emotional pain, to "feel" something when I feel numb.

I hurt so much on the inside that when I cut I see the blood and know that I am living.

Cutting gave me a way to externalize the pain. I could see why I was hurting.