This thread was started a long time ago but...yeah. I have a lot of issues with isolation. If I didn't go to school and work, I wouldn't see or be near anyone. No one calls on the phone, and I don't have any close friends. I do not have any family that I am close to or even communicate with.

I can't pinpoint whether I put myself in this position or if it's just how things are. I know I can be a difficult person but is it because I was born a bad person or because I've grown this thick, prickly outer skin that no one can stand to be near?

I'm 33 years old and this has been going on since my early 20's, getting progressively worse. I want desperately to have friends, a relationship...just...people. I want to be hugged. You know? But I think that, now, when people do touch me it's so foreign that I push it away...